我18岁时写了沙拉这本小说 I was 18 when I wrote my novel "Sarah.
从未想过它会成为一本畅销书，以至于有这么多人 Never thought it'd become a best seller with all these fancy people
想要见我, 这个虚构的JT 莱罗伊 wantin' to meet me, the elusive JT Leroy,
但我更喜欢宅在家里, 因为在我创作或在通话时 but I prefer to be a shut-in 'cause when I'm writin' or on the phone,
我可以清楚地让人们知道我到底想表达什么 I get to show people exactly what I wanna show 'em.
我可以陷入文字世界... 忘乎所以 I can focus on the words and just... leave my body behind.
片名: JT·莱罗伊
- 小子, 这听起来真棒. - 是吗? - Dude, it's so good. - Yeah?
这是我们刚从录音棚拿到的试播版 We just got the demos back from the studio,
哈, 这真是太让人兴奋了 so, yeah, I'm pretty fuckin' excited.
- 是她吗? 是劳拉唱的吗? - 嗯, 是的, 不, 就是她. - Is that her? Is that Laura? - Uh-huh. Yeah, no, that's her.
- 不错嘛. - 唱的超棒, 你觉得呢? - Cool. - Pretty fucking great, right?
当然 Yeah.
小子, 她是一个... Man, she's...
我只是等不及你去见她了 I just can't wait for you to meet her.
我他妈现在居然住在这了, 真是不敢相信 I fucking live here now. I can't believe this.
他妈的没错, 你真的住在这了! Fuck, yes, you live here!
小子, 你走出家门了, 你做到了 Dude, you made it out of Mom's place.
你即将去拥抱这个世界, 我真是为你骄傲，为你骄傲 You're going up in the world. I'm proud of you. Proud of you.
多谢 Thanks.
旧金山 2001年
嗨, 嗨! Hey, hey!
嘿, 进来吧. 我们到了 Hey, come in. This is us.
厨房就在那边. 电磁炉, 小心, 到处都是书。 Kitchen's right over here. Cooker. Careful. There's books everywhere.
- 这样很酷. - 我之前试过整理干净 - These are beautiful. - I wouldn't touch that.
我们不会再碰它们了 We got lead. I had it tested.
好了, 就是这样. 这就是创造奇迹的地方 All right, this is it. This is where the magic happens.
- 杰夫, 这太棒了. - 是吗? 你注意 - This is so cool, Geoff. - Right? Now, listen.
那个沙发坏了. 你尽量让自己舒服点. 我去给你泡杯茶 Couch opens up. Make yourself comfy and I'll make some tea. You want a tea?
我想喝点啤酒 I'd love a beer.
啤酒，马上就来, 算你走运 Beer. Right on. OK. You're in luck.
我刚做了一批新鲜的自制啤酒 I just made a fresh batch of home brew. Cool.
嘿, 你! 快出来见见我妹妹! Hey, yo! Come meet my sister!
这就出来！ Be right there!
无论如何, 每当我和他说不能这么做 Anyway, every time I tell'em no,
我能感觉到他只会更加渴望 I can feel 'em wantin' more.
我简直不敢相信这个淘气的南方小男孩正在抗争 They just can't believe this itty-bitty Southern rent boy is denying'em.
不得不说, 我喜欢掌控一切 I gotta admit, I like having the power.
嗯, 好吧. 给常感谢 All right, yeah. Yeah, thanks.
明天同一时间, 再见 Same time tomorrow. Bye.
他在哪儿? Where is she?
- 她在哪呢? - 嗨 - Where is she? - Hey.
哦, 你真漂亮. 哦, 萨凡纳 Oh, look at you. Oh, Savannah.
杰夫的宝贝妹妹 Geoff's baby sister.
- 哦, 我从你的微笑中看到了你美好的灵魂. - 真棒, 你们见面了 - Oh, I see your soul in your smile. - Cool, you guys have met.
- 你们见面了. - 看看这个人 - You guys have met. - Look at this creature.
- 欢迎来到我们的小城堡. - 和你说的一模一样 - Welcome to our little chateau. - Just as you said.
- 我喜欢的笑容. - 你做的吗? - The smile I fell in love with. - You made this?
- 我只是更擅长做这个了. - 宝贝, 你什么都擅长. - I'm getting good at this. - You're good at everything, baby.
我听了车里放的音乐了 I heard the music in the car.
- 唱得很不错, 真的... - 很惊艳, 对吗? - It is good. It's really... - Amazing, right?
唱得太好了! 他沉浸在了歌曲里! It's so cool! He's in a zone!
- 我只是写了歌词. - 她只是写了歌词吗? 不, 不. - I'm just writin' lyrics. - She's just writing...? No, no.
这位女士是在把我的音乐变成这些优美的歌曲 This woman is turning my music into these beautiful songs.
我们一天写两、三首歌, 这太疯狂了 We're writing two, three songs a day. It's insane.
- 他热情高涨. - 听起来好像正在发生。 - He's on fire. - Sounds like it's happening.
- 是你热情高涨. - 我们都热情高涨 - You're on fire. - We're on fire.
- 那是什么? - 哦, 只是我做的一样东西 - What's that? - Oh, it's just this thing I made.
我用强力胶带在周围多缠了一圈 I had an extra roll of duct tape lying around.
- 等等, 等一下. - 你做的真不错 - Wait a minute. Hold on. - That's pretty cool.
是的, 这仅仅是你做的一个物件吗? 这不仅是一个物件 Yeah. Just a thing you made? That is not just a thing.
那是什么，看起来像神奇的独角兽背包. 这太让我惊讶了 What is that, like magical unicorn backpack? That is blowing my mind.
这可是纯粹的艺术. 你就像是创意天才 That's pure art. That's like creative genius.
不要...不要把那东西看贬了, 好吗, 宝贝? Don't... Don't put that stuff down. Right, baby?
嗯, 嗯 Hm-hmm.
- 好的, 好的. 当然不会. - 对吗? - Yeah. Yeah. No, fuck, yeah. Of course. - Right?
你得带她去参加李的派对 You gotta take her to Lee's party.
- 对吗? - 你应该去的 - Right? - You gotta go.
- 我们都应该去！我们都应该去！- 是的, 来这的第一个夜晚！ - We gotta go! We gotta go! - Yeah, first night!
- 你会参加的. - 当然了 - You're gonna come? - Of course.
- 你们如果有任何计划, 我都没问题. - 你会去吗？ - Anything you wanna do, I'm open. - You gonna come?
- 她刚来到这都去了. 你必须去. - 如果你想让我来...... - She just got here. You've gotta come. - If you want me to come...
来吧, 我们不是要你去, 我们是需要你去 Come on, we don't want you to come, we need you to come.
- 你拉我进来. - 我们需要你 - You're pulling me in. - We need you.
你在拖着我去参加庆祝舞会! You're dragging me into a celebration!
你要去参加李的聚会啦! 小萨来到旧金山啦! You're going to Lee's party! Sav's in San Francisco!
你, 最近如何? Yo, what's up?
嗨, 怎么样? Hey, what's up?
你穿上这个, 我们俩穿一件衣服就行. 天呐, 它和你的头发真配 I'll put this on you. We share clothes. God, it looks amazing with your hair.
哦, 塞缪尔! Oh, Samuel!
这是杰夫的妹妹, 萨凡纳! This is Geoff's sister Savannah!
她要接管他哥哥的旧公寓 She's taking over his old apartment.
- 我是小萨, 很高兴见到你. - 扭曲和尖叫的海报贴在情商了呢. - I'm Sav, nice to meet you. - Twist & Scream poster is on the wall.
哦, 讨厌! Oh, shit!
真漂亮. 那就是我们的乐队 That's so beautiful. That's our band. Yeah.
没门! No way!
- 这么说你是个艺术家了? - 是啊, 是的 - So you're an artist? - Yeah. Yeah.
- 你叫什么名字? - 苏菲 - What's your name? - Sophie.
- 苏菲, 什么类型的艺术呢? - 比较像概念艺术 - Sophie. What kind of art? - It's, like, conceptual.
文章写的非常精彩 And the writing has been amazing.
最后就无需用电话性爱来付房租了 I'm finally not paying the rent with phone sex.
而且我收到了一些录用信, 就像是... And I'm getting some offers. It's like...
- 你说你做过电话性爱服务? - 是的, 当然. - You say you did phone sex? - Yeah. Oh, yeah.
这可是有史以来更具创造性的工作之一呢 It's one of the more creative jobs ever.
你知道, 必须全身心投入到其中的角色中去 You know, you have to get into the role-play of it.
但作为一个作家， 这是在疯狂地创作一个角色 But as a writer, it's in the madness of creating a character,
你明白我的意思吗? you know what I mean?
之后人们的注意就都转移到苏菲身上了 And then their attention turns to Sophie?
就因为她那古怪的丁克画吗? Because of her rinky-dink paintings?
抱歉, 我的意思是, 她之所以能成为焦点, 是因为她是一个有着 I mean, I'm sorry, but, like, she's getting that 'cause she's a cute girl
迷人的小屁股和迷人的小艺术的漂亮女孩 with a cute little fucking ass, and her cute little art.
你能想象如果他们知道我是JT莱罗伊的场景吗? Can you imagine if they knew I was JT Leroy?
能吗? Right?
如果他们知道我是纽约时报的畅销书作家的话 If they knew I was a New York Times best-selling author?
- 我的意思是, 那真失态刺激了. - 好, 好, 之后我就告诉他们! - I mean, that's so crazy. - Yeah, well, then tell them!
杰夫 Geoff.
你知道我们不能那么做 You know I can't do that.
我有了一个主意 I've got an idea.
如果我做了某种伪装后再出现会怎么样呢? What if I do go out, but with some kind of disguise?
哦! Oh!
- 怎么? - 你想知道一个秘密吗? - What's up? - You wanna keep a secret?
这是什么? What's this?
是我写的书, 沙拉. 我的不朽之作 It's my book Sarah. My shot at immortality.
哦, 那JT就是你的笔名喽? Oh, so JT's like your pen name.
她更像是我的化身 More like my avatar.
这个孩子是谁? Who is this kid?
那只是我在一家旧货店找到的一张照片 That's just a photo I found at a thrift store.
我喜欢它, 因为他看起来像丹尼斯.库伯的小说里的孩子 I loved it 'cause he looks like a kid in a Dennis Cooper novel.
- 我喜欢丹尼斯.库伯. - 那真是太好了! - I love Dennis Cooper. - Of course you do. Oh!
嗨, 那你知道玛丽.盖茨克尔吗? Hey, do you know Mary Gaitskill?
嗯, 听说过. 但我从来... 从来没读过她的任何文章. 我想读来着. Um, yeah, but I haven't... I haven't read any of her stuff. I want to.
哦, 你会喜欢上她的 Oh, you're gonna love it.
我现在刚读完柯莱特的书 I'm just finishing the Colette books right now.
天呐, 我还记得我第一次读柯莱特 My God, I remember the first time I read Colette.
我会觉得自己是个法国人, 并且... I'd feel so French and...
所有伟大的创作都来源于苦难 All this great writing that comes from distress.
但是里面仍有美好留存 But it has beauty in it too, you know?
就像, JT当然也有这样的经历 Like, JT certainly had that.
就像, 他的祖父母是原教旨主义者, 还是超级虐待狂 Like, his grandparents were fundamentalists, super sadistic.
- 嗨, 记得跟我说说你的想法. - 当然, 没问题 - Hey, let me know what you think. - Of course. Yeah.
喂? 嘿 Hello? Hi.
这是我第一天去停车场 It's my first day on the lot.
我戴着我母亲沙拉送给我的金色龙舌兰假发 I'm wearing the golden Rapunzel wig bestowed upon me by my mother, Sarah.
她是传说中的美女, 也是最火辣的妓女 The legendary beauty and fiercest hooker
她曾在南部一个卡车停靠站工作 that ever did work a truck stop down South.
穿着她的高跟鞋, 我昂首阔步走在车说马龙的大卡车之间 In her high heels, I strut between the long shimmering lines of big rigs.
卡什打开护身符, 露出浣熊阴茎骨时 Cash's hand is like the maw of some big animal
他的手就像某种大型动物的胃 as he opens it revealing a raccoon penis bone,
这个护身符使他的柏油女郎与众不同 the talisman that distinguishes his asphalt girls from all others.
骨头越大, 她那柔软的女孩躯体的需求就越旺盛 The bigger the bone, the more in demand her soft girl material is.
如果你没注意到浣熊阴茎骨项链 If you didn't notice the raccoon penis bone necklaces
并且你不知道那意味着什么 and you didn't know what that meant,
你永远不会知道他们其实是男孩 you'd never know they were actually boys.
你也应该有块浣熊骨... You got to earn that raccoon...
暴徒包围了我, 撕扯我的系带, 撕开我来之不易的衣服 The mob surrounds me, tearing at my lace, ripping my hard-won finery.
他们喊道：他是个男的! "It's a goddamn boy!" they yell,
饥饿的豺狼在树林里追我的同时又向月亮乞讨 hungry jackals baying at the moon while chasing me through the woods.
这就是我的全部 This is all I am.
一颗血淋淋的心, 在淤青的黑色天空下承受重击 A bloody, glittering heart thumping under a bruise-black sky,
拒绝让任何人告诉我, 我应该是谁 refusing to let anyone tell me who I'm supposed to be.
我觉得这本书写的太美了, 这很不可思议 I found it so beautiful. It's crazy.
我从来没有读过类似的内容, 而且它真的很悲伤 I've never read anything like it, and it's really painful, you know,
但这就像魔法一样, 我甚至不能... but, like, fucking magic and I can't even...
不能想出一个恰当的方式 I can't think of the right way
来描述它带给我的感受 to describe how it makes me feel, honestly.
哦, 天呐! Oh, my God!
能听到你这么说真是太美妙了 That's so beautiful to hear you talk about it that way.
老天爷! 你当然会有这种感受了 God! Of course you so get it.
我不知道杰夫是否和你说过, 我当时在如此黑暗的地方 I don't know if Geoff told you. I was in such a dark place, you know?
灵魂或是情感, 或任何你想称之为的东西 The soul or spirit or whatever you wanna call it
都体现了我 just... embodied me.
这位耶利米终结者莱罗伊 This Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy.
耶利米终结者莱罗伊... Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy...
哇 Wow.
之后他开始给这个治疗师打电话, 这个专家告诉JT Then he started calling this therapist who told JT,
"嘿, 你应该把你的故事写下来" "Hey, you should write your story down."
能和你分享这些真是太棒了, 因为... It's kind of amazing sharing this with you 'cause...
嗯... 当我第一次见到你时, 我觉得你和他长得很像 um... when I first saw you, I thought you looked like him.
- 啊? - 这就是为什么我想... - Huh? - It's why I was just...
想问你能不能给你拍张照来当做他的照片 I wanted to ask you if I could take a picture of you as him.
啊, 你的意思是? 让... Well, what do you mean? Like...
我用JT这个身份打了很多年的电话 I've been JT on the phone for years,
现在人们需要见到他 and people need to see him now.
我是说, 你知道的, 我是个女孩. 我想陈述一下这个事实 I mean, I'm... a girl, you know, just to state the obvious.
不! 不! No! No!
这是好事, 你知道吗？JT是兼具两性的. 他就像, That's what's beautiful. He's androgynous. You know? He's like,
发现了他自己的特性. 或是男孩, 或是女孩, 他在伪装 you know, discovering his own identity. Boy, girl. He's in disguise.
另外我会给你50块钱, 你去应酬访问杂志 I'd pay you 50 bucks. It's for Interview magazine.
小萨! 那可是采访杂志啊! Sav! Interview magazine.
你觉得怎么样? What do you think?
我觉得... 好啊, 当然去 I mean... Yeah, sure. Why not?
哦, 你确定? 他就长这样吗? Oh, really? This is what it looks like?
- 是的. - 嗯 - Yeah. - Ew.
- 看起来真棒. - 是的 - Looks great. - Yeah.
收起你的下巴, 很好 So put your chin down. Perfect.
往右边一点点, 给我一个眼神 Little bit to the right. New just give me eyes though.
再给一点点...完美 A little bit... Perfect.
哦, 天呐, 我打了个冷颤 Oh, my God, I'm getting chills.
- 小萨, 你看起来真棒. - 这就是JT - Sav, you look great. - That's JT.
- 太完美了. - 你难道不想再拍一次吗? - It's fucking perfect. - You don't wanna do one more?
你不是在开玩笑吧? 这玩意儿每盒要12美元. 我们走吧! Are you kidding? These are $12 a box. Let's go!
我做到了 I did it.
这对我来说是一个全新的开始. 就像打开了一个新世界 This is a whole new beginning for me. Like a whole new world.
这是你的, 你好吗? Here you go. You all good?
你的头发很好看 That hair looks good on you.
谢谢你, 我注意到你的鞋子了 Thank you. I was noticing your shoes.
- 我从来没见过这么穿的. - 是啊 - I've never seen that. - Yeah.
释放脚趾, 剩下的顺其自然 Free the toes and the rest will follow.
你来过这里, 我在这里见过你. 你住在附近吗? You've been in here. I've seen you in here. Do you live nearby?
非常近, 我叫米申 Pretty close. Mission.
- 你呢? - 哦, 索马 - You? - Uh, SoMa.
好啊 Right.
我就在这工作, 如果你有什么需要的话 If you need anything, I'm gonna be working here
尽管叫我 for the rest of the time you'll be here, so...
- 好的. - 好的 - OK. - OK.
喂? Hello?
萨凡纳, 我是劳拉. 哦, 天呐, 你好吗? Savannah. It's Laura. Oh, my God, how are you?
你能在帮我一次吗? Can you do it one more time?
嘿, 我是JT莱罗伊 Hey, I'm JT Leroy.
太棒了 It's great.
我是说, 拍照是一回事 I mean, it's one thing taking a photo,
也许聊一些类似"嘿, 我是JT莱罗伊"这样的话, 对这个角色来说就是另一回事了 maybe saying like, "Hey, I'm JT Leroy," but it's another thing being him.
不, 不! 首先, 我已经接受过采访了 No, no! First of all, I did the interview already.
他不会试着和你畅谈一番 It's not like he's trying to talk to you.
他只是想拍几张照片 He just wants to get the picture.
而且, 当你遇到一个陌生人的时候 And besides, when you're meeting someone new,
你会质疑他们所说的话吗? would you ever question who they say they are?
放心, 会一切顺利的 It's gonna be perfect. Here.
这是对JT的采访录音, 你可以听听声音 This is an interview with JT so you can listen to the voice.
对了, 我的给你看看这个 Oh, I've gotta show you.
真是难以置信, 比如这个性感女星 There's this unbelievably, like, hot-as-fuck actress,
来自欧洲的伊娃.艾芙琳. 这本书在欧洲口碑很好 Eva Avelin, from Europe. The book is doing really well there.
她每晚都会给JT打电话 She's been calling JT every night.
好像着了迷一样, 而且我们谈的很默契 Just, like, obsessing and we're finishing each other's sentences.
- 喔. - 是的, 你想来点曲奇吗? - Whoa. - Yeah. D'you want a cookie?
不了, 吃曲奇会长赘肉. 我不想那样 No, cookies produce curves. I can't do it.
什么? 你不吃曲奇这类的是想走哥特风吗? What? You can't, like, eat cookies and be goth?
我... 我不是哥特风 I'm... I'm not goth.
只是长得很瘦吗? Just skinny?
不, 也不一定, 只是没有...赘肉而已 No, not necessarily, just no... curves.
你就是因为这个才束缚住它, 而且一直穿着运动胸罩吗? Is that why you're, like, binding it up and wearing sports bras all the time?
这和JT太像了 That's perfect for JT.
摆脱胸部的困扰, 你已经做到了 Get rid of the boobs, you're already there.
是啊 Yeah.
今天, 我要和JT莱罗伊聊聊 Today I'm speaking with JT Leroy,
他是小说"沙拉"年轻的作者 the young writer of "Sarah",
这本畅销书是给予他自己的经历 a best-selling novel based on his experience
他的母亲是南方卡车停靠点的站街女 as the son of a prostitute who worked truck stops in the South.
JT, 你妈妈一直冒充你是她的妹妹吗? JT, your mother used to pass you off as her younger sister?
对, 我是说... Yeah. I mean...
沙拉, 她知道琼斯不喜欢她在外面找别的男孩 Sarah, she knew that johns didn't like having a boy around,
所以她找了两个漂亮姑娘 so she made it two pretty girls.
她知道这样会引起更多的关注 'Cause she knew they'd get twice the attention.
小萨, 你这样挺好的, 对吗? Sav, you're cool with this, right?
我意思是如果你不喜欢, 你可以不必这样做 I mean, you don't have to do it if you don't want to.
是的, 不, 不, 我挺喜欢这样的 Yeah, no, no, totally. I'm into it.
你妈妈有让你去卖淫的想法吗? Did your mother expect you to engage in prostitution?
我是说, 她没有强迫我做什么. 但是... I mean, she didn't force me or nothin', but...
- 她没有强迫我做什么. - 我的一部分真的很喜欢它 - She didn't force me or nothin'. - Part of me really liked it.
我完全不能理解, 但是... I don't quite understand it a hundred percent, but...
没错, 这...很复杂 Yeah, it's... it's... complicated.
- 我喜欢精心. - 我喜欢精心打扮自己 - I loved dressing up... - I loved dressing up...
-穿上衣服. - 穿上衣服 - Putting on clothes. - Putting on clothes.
- 变成另外一个人. - 变成另外一个人 - Turning into someone else. - Turning into someone else.
看看, 劳拉在电话中一直用JT的身份 Look, Laura is on the phone all the time as JT,
但同时她也扮演他的经纪人, 斯派蒂 but she also pretends to be his manager, Speedie.
她把我当做阿斯特. - 阿斯特? - And she deemed me Astor. - Astor?
阿斯特是斯派蒂的男朋友, 我们在街上发现了JT接他回家 Astor's, like, Speedie's boyfriend, and we saved JT from the streets.
现在, 我们就像一个幸福家庭之类的 Now we're like this "happy family" and shit.
我的书是虚构的. 我是说, 我在编故事 My books are fiction. I mean, I tell stories,
但有时谎言比真相更真实 but sometimes the lies are more true than the truth.
比真相更真实 More true than the truth.
有时谎言比真相更真实 Sometimes the lie is more true than the truth.
相信我, 我也觉得这件事很疯狂 Trust me, this whole thing is crazy for me too.
我也没想到会搬进来个 I mean, didn't expect to be moving in
十几岁的鸭和一个讨厌的大嗓门英国女人 with a teenage male prostitute and an obnoxious, loud British woman.
讨厌的大嗓门英国女人? Obnoxious, loud British woman?
哦, 对, 对. 就是斯派蒂 Oh, yeah, yeah. That's... That's Speedie.
你好呀, 帅小伙 Well, 'ello, you right little bugger.
我以为你不来了呢 I thought you weren't gonna show.
准备好面对镜头了吗? 布鲁斯, 这是JT! Ready for the shoot? Bruce, this is JT!
- 嘿, JT. - 说, 你好 - Hi, JT. - Say 'ello.
嘿 Hi.
是的, 他有点紧张 Yeah. He gets a bit nervous.
另外, 他不喜欢别人碰他 And also, by the way, he don't like to be touched, all right?
在这间房里你完全可以随便看, So I give you full permission. Poke around, find your shot,
拍你想拍的照片 but, like, in this room.
嘿, JT. 很高兴你能同意采访 Hey, JT. I'm so glad that we could make this work.
- 对. - 这是从你的网站上买的 - Right. - I bought this from you online.
哦！ Oh!
我知道你很喜欢巧克力 And I know how much you like chocolate.
什么? 不用那么客气的. 我也喜欢巧克力 What? Nothin' for the handler? I like it too.
- 不错的房间. - 没错 - Great room. - Great.
我妹妹很有品味 My sister's got great taste.
那么, JT, 我想问一下你们俩住哪? So, JT, why you don't tell me where you two guys live?
呃, 我住在... Well, I live in...
- 田德隆区. - 没错, 我们住哪 - Tenderloin. - Yeah. Over there.
哦, 挺好 Oh, cool.
- 要拍了. - 你知道 - There we go. - You know,
最好能把那张"扭曲&尖叫"的海报一起拍进去 if you can get that Twist & Scream poster in,
那是我妹妹的乐队, JT也很喜欢. 你喜欢这乐队, 是吧? that's me sister's band and JT loves it. You'd like that, right?
我觉得需要他放松一点 I think we need to loosen up a little bit.
- 哦, 放松嘛? - 是的, 我需要放松一点 - Oh, loosen up? - Yeah, we do.
来吧，宝贝, 放松你的肌肉. 喜欢吗? Shake up them muscles, little lovey. You like that?
太棒了, 我有个办法 Great. Great. I got an idea.
你可以, 嗯... Why don't you, um...
试着站在这个上面 just try standing on this?
我不会滑板, 所以这有点奇怪 I'm not really a skater, so it's kinda weird.
好吧, 不如... OK, how about...
你觉得怎样? 稍等 You know what? Wait.
嗯... Um...
我有... JT喜欢化妆 I've got... JT loves makeup.
给他涂个口红怎么样? What about lipstick? Right?
你想涂口红吗? 亲爱的. 那有镜子 You wanna put some lipstick on, love? In the mirror?
- 这应该不错, 怎么样? - 试试看行不行... - It could be good, right? - Let's try it. We can get right...
这样不错 This is nice.
你喜欢吗? Do you like it?
- 很好. 很有感觉. 慢慢来. - 非常好! - Good. Really nice. Slowly. - Nice!
- 慢慢涂在脸上. - 借过一下, 我怕这滑板... - Apply it slowly to your face. - I'm worried that that skateboard...
靠在镜子里 Lean into the mirror.
- 斯派蒂, 你在镜头里了. - 哦, 抱歉 - Speedie, you're in the shot. - Oh. Sorry.
让一下, 让一下. 很好 Come out. Come on out. Good.
漂亮, JT， 很漂亮 Beautiful, JT. Beautiful.
- 很美. - 我靠 - Beautiful. - Shit.
- 漂亮 - 没关系 - Beautiful. - It's all right.
- 我要去放个水. - 好吧 - I'm just gonna take a leak. - OK.
- 好了, 我觉得先这样吧. - 啊, 我...第一卷还没拍完呢 - Yeah, I think he's done. - Ooh, I just... I only shot one roll.
不, 不, 你不懂. 你能拍他就很走运了 No, no, you don't know how fortunate you are to get the shot at all.
我不明白 I understand that.
你是第一个能给他拍照的人 You're the first person who's ever taken his photo.
谢谢 Thank you.
他在家里宅了快三个月了 He's been in the house for three months.
但是我的编辑想要拍得更多一些 But my editor's gonna want more than one shot.
- 我明白, 但他很敏感. - 嘿, JT - I know, but he's delicate. - Hey, JT.
我能再多拍几张吗? What do you say we do a couple more, huh?
嗯... Um...
JT, 你... JT, you...
啊, 我得拒绝你了, 布鲁斯 Yeah, nah, I think we're done, Bruce.
希望你能理解 Thank you for understanding.
但你拍的肯定很不错, 对吧? But I bet you got a great shot, right?
- 谢谢你, JT，很高兴跟你合作. - 是的, 谢谢 - Thank you, JT, for your time. - Yeah, thanks.
- 真是一种享受. - 你表现得很好 - It was a real pleasure. - You did great.
- 斯派蒂? - 好了, 谢谢你, 布鲁斯 - Speedie? - All right, thank you, Bruce.
- 谢谢你. - 我相信你的能力 - Thank you. - I'm sure it will be great.
- 我们应该不久就能看见成品了吧. - 可以 - And we'll see the shots soon. - OK. Great.
那你慢走 All right then.
- 你演的太像了! - 真是尴尬到爆炸 - You were fuckin' great! - Disaster vibes.
- 你太棒了! - 哦, 我的天呐! 抱歉 - You were great! - Oh, my God! I'm so sorry.
抱歉什么? Sorry?
- 你在说什么? - 我不会那个口音 - What are you talking about? - I can't do that accent.
他看得出我是个女孩, 他看我那样子 He could so see that I was a girl. I could see him looking at me.
才没有, 他完全没有怀疑. 恰恰相反 Not at all. He never suspected anything. It was the opposite.
他都想让你跟他回家了 He wanted you to go home with him.
妈的, 你真棒. 我演的斯派蒂也不错, 对吧? Fuck, you were great. And playing Speedie was so cool, right?
那种完全不在意别人想法的感觉 Like, not giving a fuck what anybody thinks of you,
他妈的想说啥就说啥, 我爱她! you just say whatever the fuck's on your mind! I love 'er!
我问你话呢? 这太明显了 What about when you answered every question for me? It was so obvious.
没有, 这就是JT. 他很紧张 No, that's so JT. He's nervous.
他就是不会表达自己, 刚才太完美了 He can't speak for himself. That was perfect.
哦, 小萨, 相信我 Oh, Sav, trust me.
电话性爱的经验告诉我就是这样的 I learned about this from my phone sex days.
让自己成为另一个人, 对吗? You establish yourself as someone else, right?
你能做到的, 去掉口音, 然后就没人会发现了 You can do that. Then drop the accent and nobody even notices.
他是虚构的, 他是神秘的, 而人们喜欢神秘的东西 And he's elusive. That's the mystery and people love mystery.
我进来的时候差点没吐 I almost puked when I walked in.
哦, 这太JT了. 刚才太完美了 Oh, that's so JT. That was what was so perfect.
他看起来想吐, 紧张, 尴尬 He looked nauseous and nervous and awkward.
哦, 我的天啊, 星期五晚上, 我们有读书会 Oh, my God, on Friday night, we've got the reading
有很多牛逼的人会去那 and there are all these fabulous people that will show up
读他的书, 因为他从没出现过 and read for him 'cause he's never there.
但如果你出现了, 然后呼吸急促 What if you just showed up and just, like, hyperventilate?
- 没门. - 想要吐了一样跑出去 - No way. - Run out like you're gonna throw up?
- 不可能. - 当然可能! - No way. - Yes way!
我不能, 这太恶心了 I can't. It was sickening.
要的就是这种感觉. 超赞的 That's that feeling. That's what's so beautiful.
做某件重要的事情之前, 就知道这样做没错 It's that feeling we all get, like, right before we do something important.
那好吧, 无所谓了 You know what? Don't worry about it.
下次我可以找别人 I can get somebody else next time.
我得走了, 杰夫和我还要去乐队练习 I gotta go 'cause Geoff and I have band practice.
我靠, 要迟到了 Shit. I'm late.
就穿这个吧，小萨. 给你 I'm just gonna go like this. OK, Sav. Here.
哦, 谢谢. 我... Oh, thanks. I...
这是你应得的, 亲爱的. 非常感谢 As promised, love. Thank you, ta very much.
- 哦, 天呐, 这太有趣了. - 再见 - Oh, my God, that was so fun. - See ya.
谢谢. JT不舒服 Thank you. JT actually isn't feeling well,
所以很抱歉, 他今天没能来参加 so I'm sorry to say he won't be joining us after all.
我就说这是个骗局 Told you. This is some sort of hoax.
没错吧? Right?
喂? Hello?
小萨. 你今晚能过来吗? 我有好消息告诉你 Sav. Can you come over tonight? I have big news.
我的天啊! 快进来 My God! Get in here.
说起来你可能都不相信, 准备好了吗? You're not gonna believe what I'm gonna tell you. Are you ready?
一个好莱坞制片人想把"沙拉"拍成电影 A Hollywood producer wants to make Sarah into a movie.
- 什么? 不可能. 你没开玩笑吧? - 你能想像吗? - What? No way. Are you serious? - Can you imagine?
沙拉出现在大屏幕上? Sarah on the big screen?
呃, 没错. 这确实是很大的事 Yeah, yeah. That'd be epic.
JT可以像真人一样说话和做事了 JT can do his thing and say, you know,
嗨, 他会说, 我有广场恐惧症, 请给我应有的自尊, 但是... hey, I'm an agoraphobe who just wants his autonomy respected, but...
他不能这样说, 我觉得这是个好机会 I don't think so. I think this is too big an opportunity.
你是说今晚叫上我吗？ You... us... tonight?
不, 不，小傻瓜. 这个周末. 去洛杉矶 No, no, silly. This weekend. In LA.
我们去她的家里 We'd stay at her house.
是一个聚会, 关于阅读和摄影 There's a party, a reading, a photo shoot.
去吧, 很有趣的 Come on, it'll be fun.
不, 只是因为我... 我这个周末要上班 No, just 'cause I... I'm working this weekend.
我必须要去 That's... That's the only thing.
小可爱 Sweet girl.
我知道上次的拍照让你很不舒服 I know the photo shoot was intense.
对吗? 确实有点过了 Right? It was a lot.
但是, 小萨. 你身体里有一束光 But, Sav, there was a light in you.
并且我... And I...
我能感觉到那是JT, 他的灵魂从我这钻到了你那 I felt him leave my body and enter yours.
我的意思是, 当他出现的时候, 我还在上高中 I mean, I was in high school when, I don't know, he was turning tricks.
我真的想成为他吗? Am I interesting enough to, like, be him?
什么? What?
你当然想了! 我说真的, 小萨. You are interesting. Are you kidding me? Sav.
你真的很赞 You're incredible.
我不是讨厌自己, 但这不一样 I don't hate myself, I just... That's so different.
我觉得你应该换个角度 I think you gotta think about this differently.
比如说沃霍尔, 齐格.星尘, 格蕾丝.琼斯 I mean, we're talking Warhol, Ziggy Stardust, Grace Jones. (安迪.沃霍尔, 美国艺术家, 印刷家, 电影摄影师) (齐格.星尘, 即大卫.鲍伊, 英国摇滚音乐家) (格蕾丝.琼斯, 牙买加裔美国超模)
想象一下你在某天早晨醒来, 说我想成为另一个人 What if you wake up one morning and say, "I wanna be somebody else?"
他们就行动了, 而不是等着机会降临 That's what they did. They didn't wait for permission.
呃, 没错, 我...我明白那种感觉 Well, yeah, I... I know that feeling.
我知道自己想成为艺术家, 对吗? I knew I wanted to be an artist, right?
因为我想要自己的生活! 'Cause I was like, I wanna have a life.
我不想待在个破隔间里朝九晚五 I don't wanna live in a fuckin' cubicle nine to fucking five.
那不是我想要的 That's not who I am.
吃饭, 睡觉, 约约炮 Fine! Fine! Spend my life, "Hello, hi. Wanna fuck?"
后半辈子都在搞电话性爱吗? Doing phone sex for the rest of my life?
不. 我是个作家 No. I'm a writer.
难道我要从20岁等到30岁，希望有人 I spent my twenties and thirties waiting for somebody to discover me,
发掘我赏识我吗? somebody to give me permission?
天上不会掉馅饼 Nobody gives you anything.
你自己去争取 You have to take it.
你想去争取吗? Are you gonna take it?
这些都取决于你自己, 好好想想 You've got all these selves inside of you. Explore them.
这是你的机会, 让他们看看你的本事 This is your time. Find out who the fuck you are.
- 妈的. - 薯片吃完了吗? - Oh, shit. - Are we out of chips?
我们吃了三包薯片吗? We ate three bags of chips?
我都要成油腻的薯片了 I'm gonna be sweating potato chips.
别怕, 已经没东西吃了. 但我们还需要些又甜又咸的东西 Don't worry. No food tomorrow, but we need the sweet with the salty.
- 我没有. - 这里还藏有 - I don't. - Secret stash.
- 巧克力. - 你吃吧 - Chocolate. - I'm OK.
- 吃吗? - 不吃 - Yeah? - Uh-uh.
- 跟我说说那男孩. - 肖恩吗? 怎么了? - Tell me about this boy. - Sean? What about him?
你男朋友吗? Well, you date men?
算是吧, 我喜欢像他那么帅的 Sometimes. If they're as cute as he is, I do.
但我比较看得开. 我当然更喜欢女孩 But I'm open. I like girls, obviously.
我不太像去女同夜店了，感觉很不自在 I can't go to any more dyke nights. It makes me so uncomfortable.
太尴尬了. 糟糕的音乐 It's so embarrassing. The music's so awful.
杰夫有跟你说过我们第一次见面时我假装自己是女同吗? Did Geoff ever tell you I pretended to be a dyke when we first met?
没有. 为什么? No. Why?
因为...他长得很帅 Because... he was just so good-looking.
我想知道他是否喜欢我 You know, I wanted to know if he liked me for me.
啊 Ah.
试探一下免得变成被迷得团团转的胖女孩 Test the waters and not be the fat girl swooning.
嗨 Hey.
我那时100磅比现在胖 I was a hundred pounds fatter than I am now.
哦, 我不觉得啊 Oh. I didn't realize that.
好在我不在意别人是怎么骂我 Good thing I'm not terrified of the knife.
但我之前有过女朋友 But I've been with women before.
特别是在福利院的时候 Especially in the group home.
说说看 How was that?
做爱那感觉很奇妙 Sex was amazing.
不, 我是问福利院 No, I mean the group home.
奥 Oh.
很艰苦 Rough.
但也把我锻炼的皮糙肉厚去面对生活 But it gave me the tough skin I live in.
我经常晚上偷溜出去, 打给自杀热线求助 You know I used to sneak out at night and call suicide hotlines for help,
我永远不能... 做自己 and I could never... be me.
我创作的角色一般都是男孩 I'd create characters, usually boys.
他们中大多数都不成功, 但JT... Some of them didn't make it, but JT...
JT一直都在 JT kept calling.
他不必被囚禁于我的身体里, 这太好了 And it felt so good to not have to be in this body.
千万别变成我这样 You know? To be as far away from it as possible.
我知道 I get that.
JT！ JT!
哦, 天呐！ Oh, my God!
JT! JT!
JT,天那, 太好了, 终于见到你了 Oh, my God, it's so good to finally meet you.
- 太神奇了! - 对吧? - This is amazing! - Right?
JT，继续写书. 你可能也买得起这样的房子 JT, keep writing them books. Maybe you'll get a house like this.
哦, 不, JT，剧本才赚钱 Oh, no, JT, the real money's in screenwriting.
你应该给我写一部分, 非常酷的一部分. 我可以演一个地块蜥蜴 You should write me a part. A cool part. I could play a lot lizard.
- 哦, 你已经有一个男演员了. - 客房在这边 - Oh. You already got an actor. - The guest bedroom's this way.
这里是客房吗? I don't think we've been in a guest room.
太好了吧 It's amazing.
- 哦, 天呐, 豪宅啊！- 谢谢 - Oh, my God, what a house. - Thank you.
哦, JT给你带了点小东西 Oh, and JT brought you a little prezzie.
啊 Ah.
不是从尼曼百货买的 Not really from Neiman Marcus.
我从令居的垃圾袋里找到的 I stole that bag out of my neighbor's recycling, but...
哦, 小洋葱. 好可爱 Oh, little mini onions. How cute.
而且... And...
还有烤豆 baked beans.
- 哦, 天那. 正好需要一个. - 这些都还能用, 是吧? - Oh, God. I've needed one of these. - Those are great, right?
我喜欢这个 I love that you're quite good at that.
我只能说, 你很熟练嘛 That's all I'm gonna say.
哦! Oh!
还有JT写的歌词. 都是帮"扭曲&尖叫"写的. 我们的乐队 And JT wrote all the lyrics to our band's songs, Twist & Scream.
也许你会喜欢 Thought you'd love it.
这很炫诶 Oh, that's so cool.
JT, 你收到我寄给你的那本书了吗? JT, did you get that book I sent you?
是的, 我很喜欢 Yeah, we loved it.
是的, 是的. 真的太好了 Yeah, yeah. It's real good.
JT. 你怎么穿成这个样子? JT, what are you wearing?
什么... 发生了什么? What... What is going on?
那些钱都去哪了? What's happening to all the money?
目前这些钱也没有多少 There's not much money though yet.
你为什么一直替他回答问题? Why do you keep answering for him?
他是个聋哑人 He's a deaf mute.
这是因为他讨厌谈论金钱 That's the way it feels because he hates talking about money,
讨厌谈生意 hates business talk.
你懂的, 就像艺术, 艺术, 保持它的纯粹性 You know, it's like art, art, art. Keep it pure.
我是说, 我们是两个孤儿, 他妈的, 互相找到了彼此 I mean, we're two orphans, fuck, who found each other.
我也不懂这些事, 也许你是对的. 这是个很好的建议 I don't know these things either, so you're right. That's great advice.
你知道, 我们需要一个指导. 我要去找个人来 We need a guide, you know. I'll get someone.
好吧, 就这样吧, 雾都孤儿 OK, all right, Oliver Twist.
过来吧 Come on.
嗨, 大卫 Hi, David.
我的天哪, JT, 听听这个. 他们试图在模仿那些明星 Oh, my God. JT, listen to this. Trying to emulate the icons.
如果我必须以JT的身份和所有JT的朋友交谈... If I have to talk to all of JT's friends as JT...
我们相互合作 天衣无缝 We work off each other. You're perfect.
一定要相信自己 Totally trust yourself.
JT, 你还好吗? JT, are you OK?
JT是天才, 小萨也是天才. 别忘了这一点 JT's a genius and Sav's a genius. Don't you ever forget that.
这个培根包蜜枣太好吃了 The bacon-wrapped dates are amazing.
哦, 我们不吃猪肉 Oh, we don't eat pork.
哦, 我只是想有礼貌点, 不好意思 Well, I was just being polite, but yeah.
如果你不理解那些什么意思, 就硬着头皮跟下去 If you don't understand a reference, just go with it.
想我做的一样, 假装自己是故意的而不是一个错误 Do what I do. Hang a lantern on it.
什么鬼... 那是什么? What is... what is that?
你戴着墨镜真有趣JT. 你把它取下来过吗? You're so funny with the sunglasses,JT. D'you ever take them off?
如果错的很明显, 那就让它更明显 It means if it's obvious, make it more obvious.
让我们看看这位美女 Let 'em see these beauties.
你的眼睛真漂亮 Your eyes are so beautiful.
就像那些中国指铐 It's like those Chinese finger puzzles.
你得先投入进去, 才能找到办法解围 You go in further to get out.
宝贝, 我们在上帝的田野里玩耍 Baby, we're at play in the fields of the Lord.
看, 这是伊娃.艾芙琳. 她很想制作"沙拉"的影片 Look, there's Eva Avelin. She's dying to do Sarah.
自导自演 To direct and star in it.
JT? 嗨. 约翰.布莱威尔 JT? Hi. John Bradwell.
- 我们喜欢你为JT做的那件事. - 噢 - We loved the piece you did on JT. - Oh.
- 深思熟虑, 明察暗访. - 哇 - Thoughtful, investigative. - Wow.
- 真是很棒, - 谢谢, 谢谢 - Really a great piece. - Thank you. Thank you.
嗯, 我还住在旧金山 Um, I'm still living in San Francisco,
所以如果你想见见面继续上次的聊天... so if you wanted to meet up and continue that conversation...
是的, 当然. Yeah, definitely.
- 我要走了，去拿点东西... - 好 - I'm just gonna grab... - Right.
好吧 OK.
JT. JT.
哦, 伊娃, 嗨 Oh, Eva. Hey.
终于来了(法语) Enfant.
你终于来了 You are here at last.
嗯, 对, 我来了 Um, I'm here, pretty sure.
那个蜗牛的故事进展如何? How's the snail story coming along?
- 很好. - 不好意思 - Good. - Excuse me one second.
那只蜗牛还长着一副野兽的脸吗?(法语) Does the snail still have a visage brute?
- 嗯... - 野兽的脸? 抱歉, 我是斯派蒂 - Um... - Visage brute? Sorry, I'm Speedie.
JT刚告诉我这个 JT was just tellin' me about that.
难看的脸还是什么的, 我很喜欢! "Ugly face" or somethin'. I love it!
- 给我们一点时间？ - 像标题一样... - Just give us a minute? - Like a title...
哦, 当然 Oh, sure.
你要住在这里吗? Are you staying here?
嗯, 啊哈, 我就住在那个房间里 Um, hm-hmm. I'm just in that room there.
好吧, 很好. 只是有点担心你住在酒店 OK, cool. I'm just kinda worried about you staying at some hotel,
到处乱跑 惹上麻烦 running off and getting into trouble.
我已经不会遇到那种麻烦了 I don't really get in that kind of trouble anymore.
嗯 Hm-hmm.
你脸上都写了麻烦两个字 You have trouble written all over you.
哦, 天呐. 你真的很他妈可爱 Oh, my God. You are so fucking cute.
为什么这么害羞? 集中注意力 Why are you so shy? Soak up the attention.
- 大家在这儿都是因为你. - 是啊, 太疯狂了 - Everybody's here for you. - Yeah, it's crazy.
伊娃!(法语) Eva!
好吧, All right.
- 在酒吧找我. - 好吧 - Find me at the bar? - OK.
可以 OK.
哦, 嗨, 伊娃, 你明天会去读书会吗? Oh, hey, Eva, is... are you gonna be at the reading tomorrow?
宝贝, 你在说什么? 我也是读者之一啊 Baby, what are you talking about? I'm one of the readers.
哦, 是的 Oh, yeah.
嗯, 我是...我在想... Well, I was... I was thinkin'...
操 Fuck.
完美 Perfect.
尼斯. 摇一把吧 Nice. Just shake it out.
我们走了 There we go.
看看这个 Look at that.
高一点点 Up a little bit.
JT! JT!
很抱歉打扰你, 我, 嗯... So sorry to bother you. I, um...
我只是想告诉你, 你的作品对我有多么重要 I just wanted to tell you how much your work means to me.
有段时间我也曾流浪在街头 I was on the streets for a while too.
当我读你的书的时候, 感觉就像有人真的懂我 When I read your book, I was like, someone gets me.
你的想法对我有着很重要的意义 Your voice means a lot.
谢谢你 Thank you.
你看到了吗? 咦? Do you see that? Huh?
你的作品, 你在帮助别人, 这很美妙 Your work, you're helping people. It's beautiful.
谢谢你 Thank you.
看起来不错 It looks nice.
到巴黎来, 好吗? Come to Paris. OK?
JT JT?
JT! JT!
再见(法语) Au revoir.
我生平第一次有了存在感 I feel alive for the first time in my life.
小萨, 你会相信的 Sav, you're never gonna believe this.
JT的法文版出版商要我们飞去巴黎, 去参加新闻发布会 JT's French publishers are flying us to Paris for a press conference.
我的天哪 Holy fucking shit.
你他妈不是在逗我吧. 我不敢相信这是真的 Get the fuck out of here. I can't believe this is happening.
而且伊娃在那之后还要开派对! And Eva's throwing the after party.
好吧, 我也差不多得走了. 我会和你联系的. 明天再打电话 OK, I kinda gotta go. I'll talk to you. I'll call you tomorrow.
好的, 再见 OK, bye.
- 你给我们做头巾啊? - 对 - You're making us headbands? - Yeah.
- 挺可爱的. - 谢谢 - Cute. - Thanks.
那个我得去一趟巴黎. 大概两周后 So I have to go to Paris in, like, two weeks.
- 操, - 是啊 - Shit. - Yeah.
哇, 那个... 为啥事啊? Wow. That's... What... What for?
嗯, 劳拉在那有些工作 Um, Laura has some work there,
所以我会帮帮她. 她需要一些帮助 so I'm gonna go assist her. She needs some help.
- 这太酷了. - 是啊 - That's so cool. - Yeah.
- 你去过吗? - 嗯-嗯 - Have you ever been? - Uh-uh.
- 没有吗? - 没有 - No? - Uh-uh.
- 你呢? - 我倒是想 - Have you? - I wish.
是啊, 我怎么就没有被邀请呢? Well, where's my invite?
你要是能放进我的背包 You wanna fit in my backpack?
- 你可以来. - 哦 - You can come. - Oh.
我可是能缩的很小的 I can fit in very small places.
我会想你的 I'll miss you.
是的, 我也想你 Yeah, I'll miss you too.
伊娃... Eva...
你还没脱下来, 真的? You haven't taken it off? Really?
我喜欢这个, 你知道我停不下来 I love that. You know I can't stop.
我的手缠绕在你的肩上 You got my bone around your neck.
但你开始了 But you started it.
我也迫不及待想再见到你 I can't wait to see you again too.
哦, 好吧, 马上给我回电话 OK. All right. Call me right back.
他们寄了足够的钱买头等舱的票 They sent enough money for first-class tickets.
我在想, 我们可以去坐大巴, 剩余的钱放进自己口袋里 I mean, we'll go coach and pocket the rest,
但我想再买多一张阿斯特的票, 他们就是不肯让步 but I tried to get another ticket for Astor and they just won't budge,
所以我们如果只买一张... so I figured we'll just buy one if...
是啊, 为什么要去欧洲? Yeah, why would I wanna go to Europe?
下周我们有一个录音任务 We have a recording session next week.
我们下周有一个录音任务 We have a recording session next week.
我知道, 宝贝 I know, babe.
我想我们可以推迟一下, 这样也会给你更多的时间去练习音乐 I figured we'd move it and it'd give you a little more time to work on the music,
精益求精. 我的意思是, 我们这样只会干扰媒体 refine things. I mean, we're gonna be just jamming through that press.
那将是一场噩梦, 我知道你讨厌这些世俗的东西. 所以... It'll be a nightmare and I know you hate that whole world anyways, so...
是的, 我并不想只是这辆JT列车的一名守车 Yeah, I don't exactly wanna be the caboose on the JT train,
但是, 劳拉, 你知道, 我们就像是一个乐队 but, Laura, we're in a band, you know?
我们是一个集体, 一支乐队, 一条纽带 Like, that's our pack. It's a band, it's a bond.
嗨, 我们总是说什么? 无论如何... Hey. What do we always say? By any means...
都是为了这个乐队. 你知道, 是为了音乐 Necessary. Yeah, for the band. You know, for the music.
- 是为了音乐. - 这个跟音乐有什么关系? - It is for the music. - How is this for the music?
宝贝! JT会把这个乐队的糟粕弄出去的 Babe! JT's gonna plug the shit out of this band.
你在开玩笑吗? Are you kidding?
这是一个全球性的出版巨头 It's massive worldwide press.
这让我们在斯宾杂志中得到一个评论的目标更进一步 And I'm, like, this close to getting us a review in Spin.
我是说 I mean,
麦当娜给我们寄了卡巴拉的书 Madonna sent us Kabbalah books.
麦当娜在我们的世界里! Madonna is in our world!
耶, 这太好了, 劳拉, 不, 是真的很好 Yeah, that's great, Laura. No, really great.
你活在哪个世界? What world are you in?
伊娃... Eva...
是的. Yeah.
是的, 我必须有创造性的控制 Yeah, I've gotta have creative control.
这是我的生活 It's my life.
我是唯一知道真相的人 I'm the only one who knows the truth.
听着, 我明白了, 你知道吗? 你想去欧洲，它很酷 Look, I get it. You wanna go to Europe, you know? It's cool.
当然了 Of course.
我是说, 唯一的问题是 I mean, the only thing is,
你不会觉得我们正在做的事完全是瞎扯的, 对吧? you don't think what we're doing is totally fucked, right?
不, 不. 我... No, no. I mean...
我不是这个意思 No, right?
我是说, 从技术上讲, 我想这是在撒谎 I mean I guess technically it's lying.
就像, 纸面上, 我们对人撒谎 Like, on paper, we're... lying to people,
但是我感觉就像... but I feel like...
感觉好像我在做些什么 It feels like I'm making something.
感觉就像是表演, 而且我内心推着我继续做下去. 我... It feels like a performance, and I'm so compelled to do it, I...
我爱上那种感觉了, 那种我一直想要的感觉 I love that feeling, I've wanted that feeling forever,
我也不知道前面等着我的是什么? 你懂的 and I never knew really what was gonna, like, give me that, you know?
你有这种感觉, 你弹吉他, 你从12岁起就开始弹了 You have it. You play guitar, you've played since you were 12.
你弹吉他的时候, 你脸上写的... I see your face when you do it, like...
就是那种感觉 It's that feeling.
我想我确实很好的伪装成了一个19岁的街头野孩子 I guess I'm really good at pretending to be a feral 19-year-old street kid.
这并不奇怪, 对吧? That's not weird, right?
不 No.
哦, 伙计 Oh, man.
欢迎 Welcome.
旅行一切顺利吧? How was your flight? All right?
JT饿了 JT's hungry.
真的? 你们没有享受头等舱的服务吗? Vraiment? You did not indulge in the first-class fare?
布格整个航程都在睡觉, 好像只吃些鸡蛋 Bugger slept the whole flight. Maybe some eggs.
我们时间不多了 We don't have much time.
他喜欢鸡蛋, 所以如果我们能拿... He loves eggs, so if we can grab...
第一次来巴黎吧? First time in Paris? Voilà.
他妈的帮我拿... 去你妈的法国人 Fucking take my... Fuckin' French.
相当大的树, 不是吗? Quite mature trees, aren't they?
你在美国从来见不到 You never see that in America.
真漂亮 It's gorgeous.
欧洲, 我喜欢, 你知道吗? 太棒了 Europe, I love it. You know? It's fantastic.
我要吐了 I'm gonna barf.
我不敢相信他们不肯为了鸡蛋停下来. 我不能靠吃零食活着 I can't believe they wouldn't stop for eggs. I can't live off snacks.
你要做我的拥护人, 替我发声. 我们永远不会吃 You need to be my advocate and speak up or we'll never eat.
对不起 Sorry.
你也得把夹克脱掉, 我们得看见整个乐队的名字 You'll have to take the jacket off too. We gotta see the whole band name.
- 你能看到. - 不, 这是营销 - You can see it. - No, it's promotion.
- 这对杰夫有好处. - JT - It's good for Geoff. - JT?
啊 Ah.
你好! Hello!
嘿 Hi.
- 嗨, 斯派蒂. - 嗨, 伊娃 - Hey, Speedie. - Hey, Eva.
- 你看起来依然漂亮. - 你好吗? - You look gorgeous as usual. - How are you?
- 怎么了? 你紧张吗? - 是的, 当然 - What's up? You nervous? - Yeah, of course.
不要, 你看起来很棒, 我喜欢你的夹克, 嘿! Don't be. You look great. I love your jacket. Hey!
你他妈的会很棒的, 宝贝, 我为你感到骄傲 You're gonna be fuckin' great. I'm so proud of you, baby.
我有东西给你 I have something for you.
好吧, 我们能... 你知道吗? All right. Should we...? You know what?
我想我最好和你一起去, 这样我们就可以检查场地... I think it's best I come with you so that we can check the venue and...
那么你给了我你的护身符 So you gave me your talisman.
我要把我的给你 I'm gonna give you mine.
是我祖父的 It belonged to my grandfather.
哦... 哦, 太不可思议了 Oh... Oh, it's incredible.
- 我不能接受它, 你知道的... - 不, 你能 - I shouldn't accept that. You know... - Yes, you should.
我们得走了 We have to go.
JT 莱罗伊 JT LeRoy.
JT！ JT!
嗨 Hi.
是的 Oui?
你妈妈让你经历了一些可怕的处境 Your mother put you through some awful situations.
她对你揭露她的行为有何看法? How does she feel about your exposé of her behavior?
嗯... Um...
她不再... She's not...
和我们一起了 with us anymore,
所以我真的不知道 so I don't really know.
我们听不见, JT！ We cannot hear you, JT!
你听不见我? 嗯... You can't hear me? Um...
我... I...
我只是说. 嗯... I was just sayin' that, um...
我的...我妈妈不在了，还有... my... my mom isn't here anymore, and...
书也是虚构的, 所以 Also the books are fiction, so, yeah.
JT? JT?
你在网站上写的，写作是你的, 你的救命稻草 You wrote on your website that writing is your lifesaver.
很痛苦, 但我需要它 It's painful but I need it.
- 你的朋友怎么想的? - 虚构中的真相... - What do your friends think? - The truth in fiction...
JT, 你为什么不愿意公开露面? JT, why do you tend to avoid public events?
这只是保护措施, 我想, Protection, I think, and...
说说你的穿着搭配, 一个所谓的伪装 Speak to your choice of wearing a quote unquote "disguise."
匿名就像失去了你的童真 Anonymity's kinda like losing your virginity.
它们是基于你的真实经历, 对吧, JT? They are based on your real experiences, right, JT?
小说有点像谎言, 但可能比事实更真实 Fiction's sort of a lie, but can be more true than the truth.
JT, 我听你像是个女人, 但是你坚持你是个男人 JT, you sound like a woman to me, but you insist you are a man.
哦... Uh...
你知道, 帮助你适应我带给你的感觉 You know, it's not really my responsibility
不是我的责任 to help lead you through your own discomfort on how I make you feel.
- 我做我自己. - 他妈的, 是的! - I can be whomever I wanna be. - Fuck, yeah!
至于你说我声音像女人 And as for sounding like a woman, um,
好吧, 我想说谢谢你 well, I'd say thank you.
但是, JT But, JT,
你真的是你说的那个人吗? are you really who you say you are?
这个问题 Are you really who you say you are?
我... I...
我真的说不出来. 你是个男人吗? I can't really tell. Are you a man?
现在就证明你的男子气概! 把你的小鸟亮出来 Prove your masculinity right now. Pull your cock out.
好吧, 结束了 All right, it's done.
结束了 It's done.
谢谢(法语) Merci.
- 你知道我的意思吗? 这就是关键. - 稍等一下 - You know what I mean? That's the key. - Hold on a second.
在美国, 情况不同 In America it's different.
在美国... In America...
你处理得那么好，宝贝 You handled that so well, baby.
超级酷... Super cool...
JT? 这个年轻人希望你在他的书上上签字 JT? This young man would love for you to sign his book.
你好, JT Bonjour, JT.
伊娃...伊娃 Eva... Eva.
伊娃 Eva.
我现在要带JT回酒店. 我们需要一顿正餐 I need to take JT back to the hotel now. We need a proper meal.
- 胡说. - 不, 他喝的太多了 - Nonsense. - Nah, he's drinking too much.
而且我也受不了这些烟 And I can't stand all this smoke.
斯派蒂, 得了吧 Speedie, come on.
别再总干涉他的生活了 Stop interfering with his life all the time.
实际上, 她在干涉我的生活 She's interfering with my life, actually.
原谅我 Excuse me.
JT JT.
- 我们回酒店去吧. - 我还没想要走 - Let's go back to the hotel. - I'm not ready to go yet.
这个地方充满了毒性, 走吧 Well, this place is filled with toxicity. Let's go.
我在上帝的田野里玩耍, 记得吗? At play in the fields of the Lord, remember?
记住我的话 My words.
回头见, 斯派蒂 See you later, Speedie.
埃尼奥! Ennio!
这个样子很完美! This look is everything!
哦, 伙计! 这是我们喜欢的歌 Oh, man! It's our favorite song.
哦, 对了 Oh, right.
对不起 Sorry.
怎么了, JT? What's up, JT?
你在哪? Where are you?
我在... I'm...
我就在这儿, 我只是... I'm totally right here. I'm just...
我只是累了, 你知道吗? I'm just tired, you know?
嘿 Hi.
你的感觉和电话里的完全不同 You have a very different vibe than on the phone.
是的, 我... Yeah, I'm...
需要倒时差 so jetlagged.
你和斯派蒂怎么了? What's the deal with you and Speedie? Huh?
我的意思是, 你们几乎不给对方喘息的空间 I mean, you barely give each other room to breathe.
她真讨厌 She's so obnoxious.
我知道她是你的朋友, 对不起, 但... I know she's your friend. I'm sorry, but...
不, 在外人看来很奇怪 No, it seems weird from the outside.
嗯... Um...
但是, 没有她我根本不可能存在 But I wouldn't even exist without her.
什么? What?
我真的不想去那里, 但是 I don't really wanna go there, but...
没有别的地方可以选择这部电影 where are we with the option for the film?
嗯... Um...
我只是, 你知道的, 我会很荣幸能导演这个片子 I just, you know, I'd be so fuckin' honored to direct it,
以及扮演你妈妈 and play your mother.
你知道, 她是个很特别的角色, 沉迷于自己的堕落 You know, she's such a character obsessed with her own downfall.
你知道吗? 我总是和那种女人有关 I've always just related to that kind of woman, you know?
我真的认为重要的是展示... And I really think it's important to show how...
你是怎样忍受她的痛苦的, 你知道的 how you absorbed her pain, you know?
我要公正地做 I wanna do it justice.
我可能需要, 像是一个, 被完全控制的剧本 I'd probably need, like, full control of the script.
你知道, 因为这是我的生活, 但是... You know, 'cause it's my life, but...
可以 Deal.
你真漂亮 You're so beautiful.
哦, 该死! Oh, shit!
哦, 宝贝 Oh, baby.
噢 Oh.
这是著名的JT! It's the famous JT!
所以, JT莱罗伊, 告诉我 So, JT LeRoy, tell me.
你怎么有时间来写你那惊人的畅销书? How do you have time to write your amazing best-selling books, huh?
因为你好像整晚都在外面狂欢 Because it seems like you just stay out all night partying.
我很抱歉，我很抱歉. 我知道 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know.
你在做什么? What were you doing?
我认为那个时候走太早了 I thought it was earlier.
你不能在没有我的情况下在外面这么久, 而且你还喝酒 You can't go out so long without me, and you're drinking.
谁知道你都说了些什么? 这整件事可能会穿帮 Who knows what you said. The whole thing could have fallen apart.
我在你的剧本上, 安全的创造性的把控了局面, 就是这样 I secured full creative control over the script, so... there's that.
- 什么? - 是的 - What? - Yeah.
嗯, 我没叫你这么做 Well, I didn't ask you to do that.
但是我... But, I...
我是说, 这是个好消息 I mean that's good news.
她说了些什么? 我是说，怎么样? What did she say? I mean, how did that go?
我需要知道一切. 我的马上接电话 I need to know everything. I gotta get on the phone right away
确保她说了她想说的话，并且... and make sure she said what she meant and...
我很想知道你在电话里说什么 I'd love to know what you talk about on the phone.
如果我知道你跟她在电话里说的话 If I knew what you talked about on the phone,
也许我听上去不会像个在她身边结巴的保持 maybe I wouldn't sound like a stammering idiot around her.
我需要和她讨论不仅仅在电话记录上的拿点东西 I need more to talk about than stuff I read in interviews.
我想让她感觉到... I want her to feel...
像... like...
哦, 我的天 Oh, my God.
你操了她吗? Did you fuck her?
我... I...
也就是中国指铐, 对吧? 你得先投入进去, 才能解脱出来 It's a Chinese finger puzzle, right? You go further in to get out?
妈的! 小萨, 该死! Fuck! Savy. Goddamn it!
老实说, 没有你想的那么糟 It's not as bad as you think, honestly.
- 甚至不像. - 你他妈在逗我吗? - It's not even like that. - Are you fucking kidding me?
宝贝, 她要的不是你 Baby girl, she doesn't want you.
懂吗? 她想要和她通话的那个人 OK? She wants the person she talked to on the phone.
她要的是JT She wants JT.
事实上, 她甚至连那个都不想要 In fact, she doesn't even want that.
她想要这个该死的电影的版权! She wants the fucking rights to the movie!
哦, 我有点刻薄了 Oh, I'm being mean.
我只是恨我自己, 我放纵了你一整夜 I just hate myself. I binged all night.
我很担心 I was worried.
我需要你在这里让我跟上进度. 我只是... 哦, 天那 I need you here to keep me on track. I just... Oh, God.
该死! Damn it!
你不觉得这很荒谬吗? Don't you think this is ridiculous?
你应该以你自己来写作 You should write as you.
小萨, 得了吧 Savy, come on.
你不懂, 我的话根本没人听 You're out of it. Nobody listens to me as me.
他们听你说话是因为你是JT They listen to you as JT.
但是, 你知道的, JT不存在. 他不是真的 But JT doesn't exist, you know? He's not real.
我是说, 对某些人来说他是超级真实的, 就像是...个人的 I mean, he's super real for some people, you know? Like... personal.
- 我看到了. - 这对他们是真实的吗? - I see it. - Is it real for them?
我离开了 I got left.
被骗了... 然后为成年人提供精神家园 I got tricked... and put in a mental home for grown-ups.
被辱骂... Abused...
被我妈妈耗尽... Used up by men, my mom...
我就是那个孩子 I was that kid.
这是真的 And it is real.
我没说不是 I didn't say it wasn't.
我不是这么说的 That's not what I'm saying.
你太刻薄了 You're so mean.
你太爱操纵人了, 你不必那样对我 You are so manipulative. You don't have to do that with me.
我是最后一个和你有关系的人 I'm the last person you have to do that with.
我们在巴黎, 因为我 We're in Paris because of me,
因为我的写作 because of my writing,
因为我的天赋 because of my genius.
我很高兴你知道怎么把一套戏服穿在一起 I'm glad you know how to put an outfit together,
但你要做的就是现身 but all you do is show up.
我不住在他身上, 他也不住在我身上 I don't inhabit him, he doesn't inhabit me,
他不会从你身上跳到我身上 he doesn't leap out of your body into mine?
我们不是在一起做什么, 你对我说的这些废话 We're not making something together. All this bullshit that you say to me
让我做这些疯狂的事 to get me to do this crazy shit?
不, 不, 如果我要做的只是现身. 说实话 No, no, if all I do is show up, honestly,
我为什么不他妈的继续走我的路, 不再现身 why don't I fucking go ahead and stop showing up?
那你就别当戏剧皇后了 Stop being a drama queen.
我在一个无尽的, 充满需求和渴望的大厅里迷路了 I feel lost in a limitless hall of desire and longing.
我在想什么? What was I thinkin'?
嗨, 我得告诉你一些事情 Hey. I have to tell you something.
- 什么? - 是啊 - What? - Yeah.
- 小萨... - 是啊 - Sav... - Yeah.
我看过JT的照片 I've seen pictures of JT.
- 我敢打赌. - 是的, 我读了"沙拉" - I bet. - Yeah, and I read Sarah.
- 我知道. - 我从不把这些点联系起来 - I know. - And never connected the dots.
我注意到了 I noticed that.
哇, 嗯... Wow. Um...
好吧, 等等 OK, so wait.
当你... 当你和别人当面交谈时 When you... when you talk to people in person,
他们没注意到不是劳拉的声音 they don't notice that it's not Laura's voice?
他们都认为你是个男孩 And they all think that you're a boy?
你知道, 这就像皇帝的新衣一样 It's like The Emperor's New Clothes kinda deal, you know?
每当有人质疑它, 劳拉就把问题丢回就在他们自身 Every time someone questions it, Laura just throws it right back on them
你是什么意思,皇帝没有衣服吗? and is like, "What do you mean, the emperor has no clothes?
那是他最好的衣服 That's his very best outfit."
我的意思是... I mean...
我想告诉你, 我只是觉得我真的很重视它的秘密 I wanted to tell you, I just think I really valued the secret of it
还有... 想保护她 and... wanted to protect her.
如果我他妈想死, 毁了她那个, 并且... I would just fucking die if I, like, ruined that for her, and...
是啊 Yeah.
这真是我听过的最疯狂的事情 This is literally the craziest thing I've ever heard.
我真的不确定我是否应该问更多的问题, 或者... I'm really not sure if I should, like, ask more questions or...
- 我不知道, 应该跑掉. - 离开这里 - I don't know, run away. - Run out of here.
是啊 Yeah.
我很...可怕吗? Am I... terrible?
- 我是说... - 反正一切都结束了 - I mean... - Also it's over.
我不会再这样子了 I'm not gonna do it anymore,
这就是为什么告诉你实话变得容易多了 which is why it was, like, a lot easier to tell you this, to be honest.
- 你不会再做了吗? - 不会了 - You're not gonna do it anymore? - No.
如果可以的话 ♪ If I could be
你想要什么 ♪ What you wanted
如果你想的话... ♪ If you wanted...
来吧, 成为我的唯一 ♪ Come and be my one?
如果要做你想要的... ♪ If I could be what you wanted...
不, 不是我不想, 我刚刚... No, it's not that I don't want to. I've just been...
我觉得如果我离开房子, 我要变回老习惯了 I feel like if I leave the house, I'm gonna fall into old habits.
不, 我知道 No, I know.
丹尼斯, 我知道你知道, 但是我觉得卡住了... Dennis, I know you know, but I feel stuck...
不, 我真的很想去, 杰森 No, I really wanna go, Jason.
我愿意, 我只是... I do. I just...
为了我的健康, 我现在需要集中精力 For my health, I need to focus on me right now.
我知道这可能不是我应该重新体验的, 但是... I know it's probably not something I should relive, but...
我是说... 但是他们在拍一部关于我生活的电影 I mean... But they're making a movie on my life.
嗯, 他们一直要求我去片场, 然后... Well, they keep asking for me to come down to the set and...
是啊 Yeah.
不, 但我该怎么说不? No, but how do I say no to that?
是的, 伊娃和我最近有电话性爱 Yeah, Eva and I have been having phone sex lately and...
我知道这不健康, 但是... I know it's not healthy, but...
心之所向无法抵抗, 对吧? the heart wants what the heart wants, right?
- 嗨 - Hey.
嗨 Hey.
- 你好么? - 那是小萨吗? - How you doin'? - Is that Sav?
我没事. 是的, 是小萨 I'm OK. Yeah, it's Sav.
哦, 我的上帝, 把她带进来, 就像圣诞节 Oh, my God. Get her in here, it's like Christmas.
看看JT免费得到的这些东西 Look at all this stuff that JT gets for free.
感谢上帝迷们在这儿, 来, 你们看看东西 Thank God you're here, you guys. Start taking stuff.
这儿, 阿斯特, 蝴蝶结 Here, Astor bow ties.
- 看看那些. - 什么? 不 - Look at those! - What? No.
你告诉过她阿斯特为电影做音乐的是吗? Did you tell her about Astor doing the music for the movie?
是啊, 嗯, 劳拉和伊娃谈过, 也许. 对吧. Yeah, well, Laura's been speaking to Eva about maybe, right,
你知道, 为整部电影的配乐. 所以... you know, doing the score for the whole movie, so...
当然, 我和她讨论, 我们要完成它! Definitely. I'm talking to her. We're gonna push this through.
她怎么样了? How's she doin'?
她很好, 她真的很好 She's good. She's really good.
我是说, 她, 我想, 不知所措 I mean, she's I think overwhelmed.
你知道, 拍电影事儿很多 You know, it's a lot, making a movie.
她说, 她想让JT设计她在电影中穿的一套衣服 She said she wants JT to design an outfit for her to wear in the movie.
哦, 天那, 这真漂亮 Oh, my God, this is beautiful.
你得试试这个 You gotta try this.
看看那个, 哦, 拜托. 安齐维诺一直在寄这个东西 Look at that on. Oh, please. Anzevino's been sending all this stuff.
他把这些布料都寄出去了. - 真是太好了 - Like this and all this fabric. - It's really nice.
他想支持JT做设计师 He wants to support JT the designer.
你觉得我能和她谈谈吗? Do you think I could talk to her?
哦... Uh...
我刚收到一封电子邮件, 你想看吗? I just got an email. You wanna see it?
我刚从她那里收到一封 I just got one from her.
我只是, 我觉得 I just, I think
你和她直接通话会有点困难 talking to her would be hard
因为我们说了很多, 而且可能会有点下流. 但是... 'cause we're talking so much and it might get a little mucky, but...
主题行 Subject line.
拜托, 拜托, 请到田纳西州来 "Please, please, please come to Tennessee.
宝贝, 我想念你柔软的嘴唇 Baby boy, I miss your soft lips.
我梦见你的皮肤 I dream of your skin."
我喜欢这个 I love this.
我想把你的头发拉扯得像马鬃毛一样 "I wanna pull on your hair like a horse's mane."
她很喜欢你的费洛蒙. 我喜欢这个 She is so into your pheromones. I love that.
我的意思是, 你是以我的身份跟她说话, 你知道的, 像是... I mean you're talking to her as me, you know? Like...
是啊 Yeah.
我意思是... I mean...
我已JT的身份跟她说话 I'm talking to her as JT.
我们有一件事, 就像真的一样 We had, like, a thing. Like, a real thing.
这不是胡说, 这不是... It wasn't bullshit, it wasn't...
我... 我知道 I... I know that.
小萨... Sav...
你和我一样是JT的一部分 you're as much a part of JT as me.
这是事实 That's the truth.
不是那些小年轻在巴黎给你说的那些傻话 Not some adolescent talking to you in Paris saying dumb shit
因为她嫉妒, 感到被遗忘和孤独 because she was jealous and felt left out and lonely.
我很抱歉. 太让人尴尬了 I'm so sorry. It's embarrassing.
实际上, 伊娃的事情, 结果还是不错的 And the Eva thing actually turned out to be great.
你为什么不想和她亲近亲近呢? 我的天 Why shouldn't you wanna be intimate with her? My God.
你们有这种联系, 所以... You guys have this connection, so...
这太疯狂了 This is crazy.
整个田纳西州的事情 And this whole Tennessee thing.
我不知道该怎么办. 我是说, 那会很好, 为了阿斯特的 I don't know what to do. I mean, it would be... great for Astor to go
音乐事业, 我... because of the music, and I...
你知道, 她真的希望我们在现场看看那种体验. 但是... You know, she really wants us to be on set and see the experience, but...
我不知道如果你想再次成为JT I don't know if you wanna be JT again.
这... 这由你决定 That's... That's for you to decide.
田纳西
这是更衣室 It's the wardrobe.
化妆间 Makeup.
好, 好, 好！ Well, well, well!
嘿, 这儿, 小!宝贝 Hi, there, baby boy!
这不是JT为我做的一件小事情吗? Ain't this a pretty little thing that JT made for me?
- 一切看起来都很棒. - 哦, 谢谢你, 小甜甜 - Everything looks real good. - Oh, thank you, honeypie.
嗨, 妈妈 Hey, there, Momma.
嘿, 斯派蒂 Hey, Speedie.
啊, 这是你的音乐人 Oi. There's your music man.
- 嗨. - 哦, 嗨, 阿斯特 - Hey. - Oh, hey. Astor.
哦, 上帝, 你在这我太高兴了. 这真是他妈的噩梦 Oh, my God, I'm so glad you're here. It's been a fucking nightmare.
只有我和这些该死的白痴 It's just been me and these fucking idiots.
老实说, 我得和每件事斗争 Honestly, I have to fight for everything.
你知道吗? 斯派蒂. 我有点理解你和这小流氓 You know what, Speedie? I kind of understand what you're going through
在一起所经历的事 with this little rascal over here.
你知道, 和他保持亲密, 养他, 让他不搞恶作剧 You know, keeping him clothed and fed and out of mischief.
我是说, 这正是我在这个该死的场景里要经历的 I mean, it's exactly what I'm going through on this fucking set.
你不知道, 所有这些人, 就像是在养猫 You have no idea. All these men. It's like herding cats.
他们都需要关注, 他们都需要表达他们对我的看法 They all need attention, they all need to express their opinions to me.
老实说, 他们会这样对待一个男导演吗? Honestly, would they treat a male director like this?
我认为不会 I don't think so.
你知道, 我是JT的妈妈, 我是电影的妈妈 You know, I'm JT's mother, I'm the movie's mother,
我是他妈的世界之母. 太累了 I'm the fucking world's mother. It's exhausting.
但你做得很好, 是吧? But you're doing OK though, right?
宝贝, 我很高兴你能来 Baby, I'm so happy you're here.
你知道的, 你在我身边, 我就会冷静下来 You know, you ground me. Calm me down.
我得完成这场戏 I gotta finish this scene.
一定要完美, 对吧? 要干得比他们好 Gotta be perfect, right? Gotta be better than the guys.
- 伊娃, 我们需要你上场! - 约翰! - Eva, we need you on set! - John!
我告诉过你, 这不是我们要放这个的地方. I told you this is not the right place. Where are we gonna put this? What?
她看起来太他妈古怪了 She looks fuckin' wrecked.
操 Fuck.
我无法描述出我现在的感觉 I can't describe what I'm feeling.
就像这样... 似曾相识的感觉 It's like this... déjà vu feeling.
但我感觉像在家里 But I feel like I'm home.
JT... JT...
和伊娃, 这太毛骨悚然了 And Eva, that was so spooky.
看看沙拉... Looking at Sarah...
你知道, 就像她了解的所有事一样 You know, like, all these things she's picking up on.
关于这个我从未告诉过任何人 I've never, ever told anybody about it.
所有关于萨拉的事, 我最好的朋友在福利院 All about Sarah, my best friend in the group home.
就像正在直视她 It's like looking right at her.
艺术是... Art is...
真可怕, 伙计 eerie shit, man.
这太疯狂了 This is so crazy.
我的告诉伊娃真相 I have to tell Eva the truth.
你确定吗? Are you sure?
- 宝贝. - 嗨 - Baby. - Hey.
嗨, 我很高兴你能来 Hey, I'm so glad you came.
你能想象这发生的一切吗? Can you believe it's all happening?
- 真疯狂. - 对吧? - It's crazy. - Right?
你还好吗? 有比之前好一些吗? Are you doing OK? A little bit better from earlier?
是的, 我很抱歉. 我只是, 我有了操蛋的一天 Yeah. I'm sorry about that. I just, I had the worst fucking day.
- 但一切都会他妈的令人惊讶的. - JT - But it's all gonna be fucking amazing. - JT.
这会很棒的, 坐吧, 我给你拿杯喝的 It's gonna be great. Sit down, I'm gonna get you a drink.
见到你太他妈高兴了 Nice to fucking meet you in person.
- 嗨. - 嗨. - Hey. - Hey.
我很高兴能参加你的电影 I am so excited to be in your fucking movie.
他已经知道了, 傻瓜 He knows that already, silly.
我从来没有演过任何事，这太酷了 I've never acted in anything, and it's so cool.
你做得很好 You're doing a really good job.
你不觉得奇怪吗? So, is it, like, weird for you?
什么? What?
就像看到你的整个生活像狗屎般重构 Like seeing your whole life recreated and shit?
嗯... 是的, 是很奇怪 Uh... Yeah, it's weird.
我一直在写我们谈论过的那首歌 I've been working on that song we were talkin' about.
嗯, 来一段 Hmm, play it.
我告诉过你告诉我 ♪ I told you to tell me
在虚线上留下痕迹 ♪ To sign on the dotted line
任何时候我都会出卖我的灵魂 ♪ Any time I gotta sell my soul
为了... ♪ For the...
我们是第一次还是第二次定下来的? 我不记得了 Did we settle on first or second? I can't remember.
- 第一次. - 是的 - First. - Yeah.
你得记录下来, 宝贝, 以及准备好做背景音乐 You gotta get that recorded, baby, so it's ready for the soundtrack.
我... 我会的 I... I'm gonna.
这太棒了, 阿斯特也搞了些背景音乐 It's really cool that Astor's got some stuff for the soundtrack too.
哦, 天呐, JT. 我真不想再谈论这个了 Oh, my God, JT. I really can't talk about this again.
抱歉,小姑娘 I'm sorry, babe.
情况就是这样 I am thinkin' about it.
好吧 OK.
记住, 宝贝, 明天的那场戏， 我刚才说的那个 Remember, babe, that scene tomorrow that I was talking about earlier?
当你看到耶利米在地下室 When you see Jeremiah in the basement?
我要用玩偶拍它, 我之前跟你说过. I was gonna shoot it with the dolly when I told you about it earlier,
但我觉得... 我觉得我需要手持设备来拍, 在你身后 but I feel like... I feel like I need to shoot it handheld, behind you.
你介意我洗个澡吗? You mind if I take a shower?
- 跑了一天, - 是啊, 去吧, 宝贝 - I've been running around all day. - Yeah, go, babe.
- 我觉得很脏. - 在那边 - I feel really dirty. - It's over there.
我觉得会爽多了... I think it'd be much cooler...
嗨 Hey.
- 你在帮倒忙. - 我在帮你呀 - You're not helping. - I'm helping you!
住手! 停下! 我累了, 我们走吧. 哦, 我的天 Stop! Stop it! I'm tired, let's go. Oh, my God.
好吧 All right.
嗨. 太晚了, 宝贝, 就在这休息吧 Hey. It's so late, babe. Just crash here.
这真的很舒服, 曼森上周一直在这 This is actually super comfy. Manson stayed on it last week.
我们要去睡觉了 We're gonna go to bed.
- 我太他妈累了. - 晚安, JT - I'm so fucking tired. - Night, JT.
- 晚安. - 晚安 - Goodnight. - Night.
嗨 Hey.
她不是真的要退出, 对吧? She's not really quitting, right?
我的意思是 I mean,
她会回来的, 嗯? she'll come around, huh?
- 我们是一个团队. - 不, 宝贝. 不 - We're a team. - No, baby. No.
听着, 对不起, 我就这说清楚, 好吗? 要么你停下, 要么我离开 Look, I'm sorry, I gotta set a boundary here, OK? Either you stop or I'm out.
嗨 Hey.
你知道这对我意味着什么吗? You know what that means for me?
好了, 我不这样了 OK, it's done.
可以 OK.
- 嗯? - 嗯 - Hm-hmm? - Hm-hmm.
好吧, 我要赶飞机了 All right, I gotta jet.
我很快就回来, 好吗? I'll be back soon, OK?
别担心, 我会继续写的 Don't worry, I'll get back to writin'.
不, 相信我, 你 No. Trust me, you.
我真的回答不了, 道特 I can't really answer that, Dot.
他们说不存在, 所以我甚至现在都不该对你说, 对吧? They say I don't exist, so I'm not even talkin' to you right now, right?
但这么惨的时候 When shit gets this bleak,
你都不知道我还能去哪里, 我还能做些什么 you have no idea where I could go, what I could do to myself.
你都不知道 You have no idea.
JT? JT?
我... I...
我想你找错人了, 但我会把你的要求传达 I think you've got the wrong person. But I'll send your server over.
好吧 OK.
杰森, 不, 我不... Jason, no. I don't...
什么? What?
真的吗? 这太疯狂了 Really? That's crazy.
不, 我不是在餐厅工作 No, I ain't workin' at no restaurant.
生活还是老样子 Life's the same old thing.
有人只是想把我压垮，说我不存在， People just tryin' to cut me down, say I don't exist,
我在外面, 说我在餐馆工作 and I'm out there, say I'm workin' in a restaurant
当我在这里和你说话的时候 when I'm here talkin' to you.
伊娃, 为什么你就是一秒钟也要去听一些愚蠢的谣言? Eva, why would you for one second listen to some dumb rumor?
流言蜚语多年来一直环绕在我身边 Rumors have been circling me for years.
我是说, 来吧, 你知道我的情绪, 我的灵魂, 我的艺术 I mean, come on, you know my spirit, my soul, my art.
我们是有创造性的伙伴. 你得相信我 We're creative partners. You gotta trust me on this.
我怎么能...? How can I prove...?
首映式? The premiere?
当然我想来, 但是你知道旅行对我来说有多困难 Of course I wanna come, but you know how hard travel is on me.
是的, 好吧 Yeah, OK.
我明白了. 我明白了... 我要去. I get it. I get... I'll go.
我会在那儿 I'll be there.
一切都还好吧? Everything OK?
是的 Yeah.
劳拉怎么样? Was that Laura?
我能告诉你 I can tell.
伊娃的电影, 或者JT的电影或者其他什么参加了戛纳电影节 Eva's movie or JT's movie or whatever got into the Cannes Film Festival.
他们想让JT离开 And they want JT to go.
他们真的不顾一切让他去那里宣传电影, They're pretty desperate for him to be there, like, to promote the movie.
他们会给我1000美元一天 And they'd pay me, like, a thousand dollars a day.
人们也很怀疑, 你知道, 尤其是伊娃 People are skeptical too, you know? Especially Eva.
如果JT不走, 对劳拉来说一切都完了. 你知道的 If JT doesn't go, the whole thing will be over for Laura, you know?
我是知道, 但那又怎样? I know, but so what?
每次演完JT回来后你都是一团糟 Every time you come back from being JT, you're a mess.
我可以用这笔钱, 这可是一大笔钱 I could use the money. It's a lot of money.
当你在那里的时候利用更多的人吗? And use a few more people while you're at it?
这... 还真是它的还原简化版本 That's a... really reductive, simplified version of it.
我们已经讨论过了 We've talked about that.
好吧, 让我们回到现实一下 OK. Let's get real for a second.
人们对JT的反应是因为他们认为他是谁 People respond to JT because of who they think he is.
但你们所做的就像是... But what you guys are doing is just, like...
人们得到的和付出的一样多 People get just as much as they... put into it.
就像他们利用我们, 我们利用他们, 每个人都互相利用 It's like they use us, we use them. Everyone uses each other.
- 就是这样. - 哦, 我的天 - That's like how it is. - Oh, my God.
你已经决定了, 不是吗? You've already decided, haven't you?
只是再来一次 It's one more time.
我是说, 你现在听从自己了吗? 只是再来一次, 就像... I mean, do you hear yourself right now? Just one more time again? Like...
你听起来像个瘾君子 You sound like an addict.
老实说, 我... 遗失了一些东西 Honestly, I'm... missing something.
就像我... 我遗失了它 Like I... I miss it.
拜托, 我们都知道这是关于伊娃的 Please. We both know this is about Eva.
你错过了她 You miss her.
你想见他吗? Do you wanna see her?
但那不会发生了, 小萨 But that's not happenin', Sav.
我是说, 太疯狂了 I mean, it's crazy.
她喜欢的是JT, 而不是你 She's into who she thinks JT is, not you.
我在巴黎和她做了 I fucked her in Paris.
- 什么? - 我应该告诉你的. 我... - What? - I should've told you. I...
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
我一直都知道你在迷恋 I always knew you had a crush.
我是说, 这太他妈的明显了 I mean, it was fuckin' obvious.
但是, 当然我... 我不认为这真的意味着什么 But of course I... I didn't think it really meant anything.
我是说, 你知道我 I mean, you know me.
如果你早点告诉我, 就不会这么受惊了, 但为啥撒谎? Had you told me earlier, I wouldn't have freaked out, but to lie about it?
好好想想你想干什么和你干了什么. 这之后我们再谈谈 Just think about what you want and what you're doing, and then we can talk.
歌曲：你心中的风车 ♪ "THE WINDMILLS OF YOUR MIND"
戛纳.法国
- 哦! - 嗨, 伊娃. 嗨 - Oi! - Hey, Eva. Hey.
他们想让你们俩介绍这部电影 They want the two of you to introduce the film.
- 不, 不. - 伊娃! 伊娃! - No. No. - Eva! Eva!
- 不. - 什么? - No. - What?
- 宝贝! - 哦, 我的天 - Babyhead! - Oh, my God.
什么...? 来这, 发生了什么? What's...? Come here. What's wrong?
我不知道我在想什么 I don't know what I was thinking.
我真的认为我和她之间会有结果 I really thought something could have worked out between us.
我感觉自己完全像个傻子一样 I feel like a complete idiot.
别责怪你自己, 好吗? Don't blame yourself. OK?
哦, 我的天. 哭什么? 因为去了那里吗? Oh, my God. What? For going there?
如果我们没有去哪儿, 我们永远都不会成长 If we never let ourselves go there, we'll never grow.
所以, 你感觉糟透了, 是吗? So you're stuck, right?
和她的一些感情纠纷是必不可免得, Some emotional vortex with her. There's no way around that,
所以关于在田纳西州发生的事你需要找她聊聊, so you need to talk to her about what happened in Tennessee.
你陷入了一个僵局, 我亲爱的朋友 You're at an impasse, my beautiful friend.
- 知道了吗? - 嗯 - OK? - Hmm.
这就像是掲开了一个伤口的伤疤 It's like one of those sores that scabs over
各种各样的污垢都在下面 and all kinds of dirt are underneath.
你需要的是把脏东西取出来 You just gotta go back in and take that dirt out.
是的 Yeah.
跟他聊聊, 收拾好残局, 好吗? Talk to her and clean up this mess, right?
好吧 Yeah.
嘿, 有我呢 Hey. I love you.
来吧 Come on.
你带着一部关于在卡车停靠站工作的妓女的电影去参加戛纳电影节 You took a film about truck-stop hookers to the Cannes Film Festival.
人们知道只有足够激动人心 People know you're only involved if it's edgy,
有意义, 真实, 你才会参加 if it's relevant, if it's real.
更重要的是, JT对于把灵魂, More importantly, JT is interested in taking the problems
精神上的问题改造成工艺很感兴趣 of the soul, the spirit, and transforming them into craft.
哦, 我的天! 他用自己的设计做到了这一点 Oh, my God! He does it with his own designs.
你亲自设计吗? You design?
我只是想说一些事... I just wanted to say something...
那时在...田纳西州, 我感觉 Just that in... Tennessee, I was feeling,
非常非常受伤, 因为 like, really hurt 'cause,
你知道, 你和...本在一起 you know, that you were with... Ben.
并不是你不应该那样, 只是... Not that you shouldn't have been. It's just...
我不应该在哪儿, 并且... I shouldn't have been there and...
这很尴尬和差劲 it was awkward and shitty.
真的吗? Really?
这就是你想聊的吗? JT That's what you wanna talk about, JT?
你还期望什么? What did you expect?
比如, 酒后的亲热, 然后我和你一起在夕阳下奔跑 Like one drunk fuck and I was gonna run off into the sunset with you,
然后经营一段甜甜的小同性恋感情吗? and be in some sweet little lesbian relationship?
我想着你发的那些... I mean you wrote all those...
邮件 emails.
我猜你只是想要电影版权 I guess you just wanted the film rights.
我为了这部电影倾注了我的所有 I've put my whole life in this movie.
我拍了这个基于真实故事的电影, 对吧? I made a movie that is based on a true story, right?
我为你拍了这部电影 I made this film for you.
你也是为了自己拍的这部电影 I mean, you kinda made it for yourself too though.
别提醒我我是为了谁拍的, 行吗? You know what? Don't tell me who I made this movie for, all right?
别装作你不知道我到底想讲什么 And don't pretend like you don't know what I'm trying to talk about.
你知道我为你辩护过多少次吗? Do you know how many times I had to defend you?
比如告诉人们, "不, JT是真实存在的" Like, tell people, "No, JT is actually real"?
如果这全部的事情变成了一派胡言... If this whole thing turns out to be bullshit...
那我就毁了, 你知道吗? JT I'm gonna be devastated, JT, OK?
你必须告诉我 You gotta tell me.
求你告诉我你的故事是真实的 Please tell me that your story is real.
告诉我是你写的这些书 Tell me that you wrote these books
你就是你说的那样 and that you are who you say you are.
伊娃... Eva...
JT可以是任何你想让他变成的样子 I mean, JT's whoever you want him to be.
哦, 我的天 Oh, my God.
我觉得我们像是鲑鱼 I feel like... we're salmon
回到了自己大海的家 returning to our ocean home.
我们终于破茧而出 And we're finally leavin' the chrysalis
成为了我们自己的帝王蝶 to become the monarch butterflies of our own selves.
我感觉我到达了 I feel like I've arrived.
像是我终于找到了真我 Like I've finally found my true self.
劳拉, 我是卫报的约翰.布莱威尔 Laura, this is John Bradwell from "The Guardian".
我正在写一篇关于JT的报道 I'm running a piece about JT,
特别是, 关于一张我在网上发现的萨凡纳的照片 in particular, about the photo I found online of Savannah.
看起来非常像莱罗伊先生 It looks strikingly like Mr. LeRoy.
回我的电话会对你非常有利 It'd really be in your best interests to return my call.
操 Fuck.
杰夫, 我是卫报的布莱威尔 Geoff. Bradwell with "The Guardian"
又打来了, 想确认一下萨凡纳是... calling again to confirm that Savannah...
对, 萨凡纳, 是我妹妹 Yeah, Savannah, my sister,
是JT莱罗伊的外形 was the body of... of JT Leroy, yeah.
但是, 劳拉才是真正的JT. 所有都是她写的 But, Laura... Laura was the voice. She... She did all the writing.
萨凡纳, 布莱威尔又打来了 Savannah, Bradwell calling again.
听着, 我知道你才是大众眼里的JT Listen, I know for a fact that you're JT,
所以在这一点上希望你在我的故事开始之前做一个声明 so at this point you should really just make a statement before my story runs.
这听起来可能很疯狂, 但这整件事不是一个大阴谋, This may sound crazy, but the whole thing was never a big scheme.
根本不是. 我的意思是, 这只是... Never at all. I mean, it was just...
我也不知道, 一切都失控了. 就像滚雪球, 我觉得 I dunno, it just got out of hand. It snowballed, I guess.
搞什么? What the fuck?
我觉得我们背叛了一些人, 的确 I guess we betrayed some people, sure.
恶作剧后的混合反应
宝贝, 有人跟着你吗? Baby, did you get followed?
我不知道. 我觉得没有 I don't know, I don't think so.
操, 这就是他妈的政治迫害 Fuck. This is a fucking witch-hunt.
你... 你想要来点茶吗? 或者我可以给你做点鸡蛋什么的 Do you... Do you want a tea? Or I can make you eggs or something.
不用, 我吃不进任何东西. 我不饿 No, I can't eat anything. I'm OK.
饿, 我的天 Oh, my God.
宝贝 Babe.
他们现在知道我是谁了 They know who I am now.
我好惭愧 I'm so ashamed.
我只想他妈的消失 I just wanna fucking disappear.
你怎么样? How are you holding up?
我以为我会感到解脱 I mean, I figured I'd feel some kind of relief.
但我有点不知所措. 我只是觉得... But I'm kind of at a loss. I'm just like...
- 很茫然. - 是的 - At a loss. - Yeah.
宝贝 Babyhead.
这他妈就是这本书的结局 It's the fucking end of the book.
这就像是沙拉的结局 It's like the end of Sarah.
JT光着身子在树林里奔跑 JT's, like, running naked through the woods.
他们拿着干草叉 They have pitchforks.
追在他后面 They're fucking after him.
很生气，因为他实际上是个男孩 Mad 'cause he's actually a boy.
你其实可以写一个不一样的结局 You could have written a different ending.
必须是这个结局 It had to be that ending.
这他妈是个完美的结局 It's a great fucking ending.
JT莱罗伊确认为两名女性
JT莱罗伊并不存在
他们认为这个作品是骗人的 They think that the work is fraudulent.
这不是骗局, 不是欺诈 You know, this ain't a hoax, this ain't fraud.
我的书是真实的 My books are real.
还在吗? Hello?
喂? Hello?
一年以后
无需等待了, 让我们热烈的欢迎劳拉.艾伯特 Without further ado, let's give a warm welcome to Laura Albert.
汤姆 韦茨... Tom Waits...
想要做关于JT莱罗伊的"浮华世界"的一个采访, wanted to do an interview with JT LeRoy for Vanity Fair.
JT谢绝了... JT declined...
因为他出了名的害羞 because he was notoriously shy.
JT这么害羞的原因之一 One of the reasons JT was so shy
是根本就不存在JT这个人 is JT didn't have a body.
JT只是一个化身 JT was an avatar.
我们创造了这个角色 We are given this persona,
然后我们找到了替身 and then we are given this body.
而且没有任何人向我们承诺 And there's no promise from whomever made us
要将两者保持同步 that the two will be in sync.
但是, 我觉得我们可能会陷入 And, hey, I say we can be in the misery
将这两者同步的痛苦中 of trying to get them to match up,
又或者我们会创造属于我们自己的世界 or we can create our own world.
让我告诉你 Let me take you back.
我来自于一个福利院 I was in a group home,
这让我身处痛苦之中 I'm in my pain,
那里到处都是痛苦 and there's pain all around,
并且我... and I'm...
我在寻找解决的方法... I'm looking for the tools...
为了让其他也感觉到这种痛苦的人 for other people to feel that pain,
能够理解它 to understand it,
并且我不能成为JT, 你懂吗? and I can't be in this body, you know?
因为我最害怕的就是如果我告诉你我的痛苦 Because my biggest fear is if I tell you my pain,
你只会说"你活该" you'll say, "You deserved it.
"你很恶心" You're disgusting.
"你糟透了" You're horrible."
然后我看到了这些上校外辅导课的 And I'm seeing these blond, blue-eyed boys
金发碧眼的男孩, 我就在想... on after-school specials, and I'm like...
我得找一个替身 I gotta find another body.
所以我开始打电话给自杀热线 So I start calling suicide hotlines.
并且我找到了JT And I meet JT.
我像其他所有人一样对JT写出的东西 I was as surprised as everyone else
感到惊讶 what JT wrote.
然后我却感到很沮丧 Then I was sad
因为我不能够给予JT他想要的这具躯体 'cause I couldn't give JT the body he wanted.
他应得这个躯体 The body he deserved.
然后我在萨凡纳身上找到了这些 And he found that in Savannah.
- 但是, 其实这就是... - 哦, 我懂 - Um, but to be back is... - Oh, I know.
- ...换了一下. - 这太令人震惊了 - ...meta. - It's incredible.
- 你叫什么名字? - 米凯拉 - What's your name? - Mikayla.
米凯拉, 我的荣幸 Mikayla. Pleasure.
- 谢谢. - 真的 - Thank you. - Really.
嗨 Hey.
宝贝, 过来 Babyhead. Get in here.
过了很长一点时间了 It's been a long time.
我是...我真的非常庆幸我来了 I'm... I'm really glad that I came.
我来了我真的很高兴 I'm really glad you did too.
- 你叫什么名字? - JT - What's your name? - DJ.
- JT. 感谢你的到来. - 非常感谢你 - DJ. Thanks for coming. - Thank you so much.
杰夫怎么样了? How's Geoff?
他很好. 你知道的, 做他自己, 搞音乐 He's good. You know, he's being Geoff. Making music.
我很喜欢你刚刚说的 I like what you said earlier too.
谢谢你喜欢我的书 Thank you for connecting to Sarah like that.
这太好了 It's really beautiful.
哦, 我们能给你们拍张照片吗? Oh, can we just get a picture of you guys?
- 当然, - 没问题, 可以 - Sure. - Yeah, sure.
哇 Wow.
看镜头 Here we are.
我也是来告别的, 我将要搬去纽约了, Well, I also came to say goodbye. Um, I'm gonna move to New York.
我很兴奋 I'm excited.
哇. 我觉得, 这对你来说是很好的发展 Wow. I guess. That's a big one for you.
- 你叫什么名字? - 托马斯 - What's your name? - Thomas.
恭喜你, 或许我可以在世界各地看到你 Congratulations. And, you know, maybe I'll see you out in the world.
我只是在做我想做的 We're playing in the fields of the Lord.
- 你叫什么名字? - 艾利克斯 - What's your name? - Alex.
嗨, 小萨 Hey, Sav.
我听说你在尝试着, 阿...写作 I heard you were, uh... writing.
- 是的. - 你需要记住 - Yeah. - Just remember.
你扮演过作家, 并不意味着你可以成为作家 Just 'cause you played a writer, doesn't mean you are one.
祝你好运 Good luck.
谢谢 Thank you.
- 你叫什么名字? - 伊娃 - What's your name? - Eva.
伊娃... Eva...
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真相很少纯粹, 也绝不简单. __奥斯卡.王尔德
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